So GROSS!

Ok so this is my last post about my nasty sickness! As far as recovery has gone it had been pretty brutal. Monday and tuesday were obviously bad but we stayed on top of my meds and it was tolerable. I consistently woke up an hour b4 pain meds time and was way ready for them! So at surgery they put a patch behind my ear to control nausea, only lasts 3 days, well Wednesday morning is when it stopped working and that is when i would say I hit rock bottom. I just kept throwing up and throwing up. It really started Tuesday night and kept on all wednesday. There is nothing like throwing up stomach acid with a raw throat! That was the problem, I could not eat anything so therefor I could not keep the meds down, they put me on zofran, which i have used b4 and usually worked but it did not do anything!

So finally I decided that I needed to stop on the pain meds, to hope to get something in my stomach, to try to keep the meds down. Well try eating something on a raw throat with no pain meds. Yikes. We were so close to heading to the hospital for dehydration but defiantly did not want that so... We slowly got some popsicles and stuff in and then i decided to take a half dose of pain meds. In the end after like 2 days of not pain meds or a little here and there the doc finally called in a less powerful medication, which was fine bc I could not take the other on really anyway. I am sure the doc was regretting giving us his cell :)

Now I am feeling much better and every day is getting better, thank goodness! 

We went to my post op yesterday...yikes! It turns that my tonsils were huge and infected and inflamed, bigger then the size of a golf ball. Seriously, and we almost didnt take them out! Plus they had hundreds of those while tonsil stones in them. So Dr. James said in that area he ended up cutting more then he thought and part of my tonsil was stick to the muscle so there was some damage there too. Which explains more about the pain. 

I still have a dissolvable stint up my nose but he may just take it out next monday. We originally didnt think that I polyps in my sinus, just alot of infection, but once he got in there, thee were tons plus all the infection, I can already tell a huge difference on how I breath and I am only at 50% recovery! 

Is it weird that it makes me feel so much better to know how bad was and how freakin sick I was? It makes getting through the pain SO much better. I am so glad that we went ahead and took out the tonsils and I am so glad we did the surgery! I was so worried bc i knew it was going to cost us money, even though we have good insurance, i felt bad. So it makes me feel way better to know it was that bad! Now i cant wait to heal and hopefully be normal! But my voice is weird, still bc of the swelling and throat muscle stuff, so it will be interesting to see if that is diff too.  

The big day.

So yesterday was the big day! I have has sinus problems and throat problems for as long as I can remember. Starts out w an allergy attack then turns into a sinus infection and that is usually followed by white junk on my tonsils and then I have to go in and get two shots in my hips and whole round of antibiotics and steroids. So after this has been happening , like every other month. Matt made me go to an ENT. IT is just not good to be on all those meds so frequently. 

 Dr. James is awesome and he scoped up my nose and saw a deviated septum and some done spurs and blocked sinus passages. So he then ordered a CT scan of my sinuses. And wouldnt you know... I have had a permanent sinus infection for forever! In the CT, we could actually see the bubbles from the  bacteria breeding in there, so gross!! Plus all the layers of infection. Double gross!

Which explained alot, like why I have sinus infections every other month and why I am tired alot. It actually made me feel better bc despite the fact that I have 2 boys a year apart, I am just so freaking tired all the time.

 And part of it is bc my body is fighting an infection ALL the time. And this awesome doc said he can fix me! We talked about taking my tonsils out but then the doc said it was so painful that once we get my sinus's fixed it will probably fix the tonsils too... But all I could think about was. If it doesn't? I would have to go under again. So we talked again and we decided to take the tonsils out too. 

So yesterday morning he went in and fixed my deviated septum, shaved the bone spur, cleared out all infection and took my tonsils out and good thing he did bc he said they were so infected and inflamed! Yikes. So now I am pretty sure I am dying! I can't breath out of my nose so I have to breath out my mouth and that dries up all those nasty scabs! As much as this hurts and sucks, I had another sinus infection the week b4 the surgery, which just made me want it done even more! I am trying to keep my eye on the prize, no more sick and more energy! They say it will be a 3 week recovery time but there is no way that can happen. My mom is wrangling the boys, we will see how long she last. but she is def a life saver. The ward and friends are helping too.  Matt has bee awesome, between work and me and kids, he may not survive either ;)  and on top of everything... Q has an ear infection! Fingered crossed we all feel better soon!

Last picture of a smile for a little while i think.

All i could think about is "Crap what did we do?"

So. Much, Pain.

Pre School

We decided to put Dexter into a 2 day a week private pre school and he has loved it! It took us a few weeks to say good bye with out lots of tears but now he waves good bye and hops out of the car and waves goodbye. I have really like the two's program that they have at the school. They do all the art projects that I am to scared to do, in fear of a giant mess. They do starter academics with a big focus on teaching the kids how to listen and follow instructions, play with friends and be social. And one of Dexter's little buddies is in his class, so that is fun too.

I just cant believe that he is such a big boy!

I never thought about how the boys have never been away from me really but they have never really been away from each other either! Dexter was so sad to say buy to Quade. He REALLY wanted Quade to come with him. Truthfully, I was sad to split them up too, i would love to have them in the same class...  And Quade walked around the house all day saying "Dexie? Where Dexie?" It was so sweet. They do love eachother! 

Q was so happy to see D!

So happy to see mom and Quade after school!

Such a big handsome boy! 

Big Boy Bed.

In August we decided that it was finally time to put Dexter into a big boy bed... Actually we only made that choice bc Quade as climbed out of his crib and landed on his head... Sooo the crib tent that was on Dex's bed needed to be moved to Quade's. Really he was almost 3 so it was time... but I must say, it kinda has been a nightmare! He does stay on his bed but he is a master manipulator, one more book, one more song.. and then he freaks if he doesnt get his way. YIKES It was a very hard transition for him... still is! I must say it is getting better. I made a chart and explained to him that when we read our book we put a sticker, when we sing a song we put a sticker, when we pray we put a sticker and then mom and dad leave and if he is not tired he can sit there and read his books. It works a little better... 

Q's carpet imprint from falling out of his crib and landing on his head! 

Dex's bed... this was phase one of design choices, it looks better now :)

Book of Mormon

So since Dexter is now in sunbeams I felt like he needed his own blue Book of Mormon. So I tracked do the missionaries and they hooked us up.

I can't tell you how tender and sweet it is to see him caring the Book of Mormon around and looking at the pictures in the front. When we got in the car after church dex goes "Dad, will you read me this book." And he has asked us this all day. I kind of wanted to cry. I am sure he doesn't quite know how amazing this book is or how it will help his life but he knows it is important and that it is great and that makes me SO happy!

I just can't believe how much he loves it. He will not put it down! He even fell asleep with it in his arm tonight.

Melt my heart.

Children's Aquarium

In August we also hit up the Children's Aquarium. It was so cool! They had an albino alligator and lots of other creatures to check out. Plus in the back they had a sting ray touch tank and we stayed there forever! And once their shirts we soaking wet, from basically jumping in, we took them off and stayed even longer! 

 

 

More from August.

In August Matt started his new job! He was so excited for this new opportunity, plus it is a way cool job so matt was really excited to start training. So was I but it also meant that he had to go to Maine for 2 whole weeks. Try going from team parents all day everyday to single mom. I had a major adjustment to make... like major! So we spent every night those 2 weeks on skype with dad! 

Just because summer is over doesnt mean we didnt swim, like every day :)

This was so funny bc this was like the longest pee Dex has even peed, so funny!

This little piggy...

 Sleepy babe pictures are the best. They are so cute!

Who left this weapon at the park? yikes.

So dexter started this thing where he picks his nose all the time and then hand me the boogers... "Mom, I have a boog" I am not sure how I feel about this, I am glad that he hands it to me rather then wiping it somewhere else or eating it. But yuck, why does he pick it so much? I guess he has lots of boogers.

Yeah, Quade hates getting in his jammies after his bath.  So he often wiggles away and goes and hides. We find him behind the curtain and was peeing on the wall! Awesome.

His prayers are the cutest! Especially when he says things like "Please help daddy to be safe" and "Grateful for cow and betty" and every other toy he loves.

love these no sew bow ties, piece of cake!

Hate Hate Hate folding laundry! 

Girls night! 

Side walk chalk paint awesome idea! 

This kid keeps me on my toes! Just cant believe how big he is getting!  He bonked his head on our brick fireplace. 

Lol they were running around old navy while I was trying to shop... And I look over at Quade and his pants were gone. Yeah I know they are barefoot...